who could ever imagine..

well, Now is June 1.. oficially 20 days before my departure to my Mazatlan.. and my sleeping schedule is screwed up and i cant fall asleep so here I am.

I actually think that i have gotten over my obsession with Jordan Bush a little bit.. and right now i just looked at our wall to wall from the first time we talked..

in may 2007..

which means exactly .. 3 YEARS AGO!

who could ever imagine or think that we would met and have an affair, since the time he added me i thought he was hot but i mean.. nothing else haha he was hitting on me and he tthought i was carmens sister but anyways haha who could ever imagine that three years later from that days when jarred was visiting mzt for his first time , me and jordan bush we could have sex !
well i dont know what to say.. but , que vueltas que da la vida! you never know! maybe my next fuck buddy is Simon Wendl, Annas brother from germany hahaha he also added me and stuff thingkin i was cute it is the exactly same situation that happened with jordan.. and now look how i am after what happened!! well honestly i dont regret it, i actually miss it! the sex was so damn good!.. but i can barely remeber it.. haha and the fact that we got caught almost the four times we did have it and all the stuff that happened! hahaha anyway i dont wanna talk about that anymore i have to get over that topic honestly!


im going back home soon.. and im nervous/excited and feeling weird about it, i have no idea what is happening with my college and stuff.. but I know that i dont wanna stay in Mazatlan for too long and see everyone leaving, who would i hang out with :s??! i dont even want to think about that!

im a fat ass and i need to stop!!!!!! I will have fun back in mex for sure but i was thingking about this..


i wanna be back on the states and I dont wanna forget this, im still bummed for all that happened in Oklahoma and how fun it was so i have decided i wanna be back there!! i need to save money, or get a job back in mex or idk but i wanna spend next summer there with Jarred and all the crew.

I also need to gain everyones trust and faith by becoming a good girl so i would use the trust later on when i wanna go back and live with jarred for at least a month or two.. a summer..

I wouls love to spend a semester there and stuff but im not sure if my career has something there,, and c,mon... Oklahoma??/ nah! is not that nice i just loved the partying and the people thats all cuz there is no future in my career there!

well thats all i have to say for now.. tomorrow im going to the zoo!! yay!
and well actually i have a lot to tell and a lot going on that i would like to talk about later, im not in the mood of writing right now..later!