face skin and no telephone calls from mex.

Spring break is sadly over now, isnt that it was so much fun but still only to think in the idea of waking up at 6;00 in the morning makes me wanna go throw up, i hate it.

Yesterday night i burned my self accidentally with a damn nair cream all the upper side of my upper lip is red as hell, and in both sides i have little burns of the damn cream to take my mustache off, damn it! i didnt even had too much, just like 3 little tinny hair.. anyway this morning i had to put a lot of makeup on for the ppl to dont notice, but still.. i feel weird when i stare are ppl or when i talk to them, i think everyone is looking at my damn full of break outs face.

i think im doing good at school, i like it a lot the subjects are pretty interesting i wish the friend this wasnt that lame.

As soon as i got home at 2 i opened the door after my 4 block walk to get to my house while it was raining, lucky for me it started rained harder when i just got home..and as soon as i got home i went directly to the bathroom without going to say good evening to the living room to everyone as i usually do...

i wanted to see my face in the mirror..

it was horrible the damn cream also burned part of my cheek and 3 pimples appeared from i dont know where, since i dont have acne a lot!!! i washed my face with the scrub that i just got yesterday at fredmeyers and they re advertising all the time in tv the l'oreal go clean 360 with a palette to massage ur face hahaha, so i washed my hair with my clean and clear soap took all the make up off and i looked at the ugly reality my ski is so irritated so damn red it looks awful!!

when i finally went downstairs i didnt want the family to see my face, but they did.. they were amazed that i did go to skool this morning with that damn full of acne face...

i took a long like two hours and a half nap, it was good , i love naps and sleeping, and i also dreamed something idk what but i did and it was pretty big dream related to the family here, and now that i remember my ''cousins'' luke and savanna were there in the dream and it was about the house i lived in the third floor and the house was pretty messy and ugly a different house...?????? idk why i have such weird dreams and i dont know why.. it happens to me all the time, one time i want to learn about dreams, is such an interesting topic...
ohh an later on i came with the idea that i really associate the dreams that im having with what is actually is happening to me, and to what to what is happening while i sleep, cuz i hear angels crying, somebody just knocked the door, im asleep but i still can hear the noise outside of my room and where is everybody, so i could associate my dream with what is really happening downstairs at the kitchen if i hear somebodies voice it can like come to my mind who it is an appear in my dream.. hahah i know... weird..

Talking about another stuff.. the oklahoma trip still in the same old shit..my mom barely talks to me, the last time we talked she said no and that she was sick, the damn computer at my house in mexico is not working right now, or maybe is just my sister that blocked me because im telling her to tell my mom or dad to call me all the time... i pissed off because i told my mom that i wanted my dad to call me, and apparently she didnt told him or he just acts like he didnt listen, i really need the money to go to oklahoma i need my plane ticket to be bought soon!!!...
omg im so sad just thinking about that, i hope my tia aurora finally deposited me the money she said for my ''contacts'' cuz apparently she was doing the deposit today i hope she remembered, cuz i have $10 dlls in my wallet, til the twenties....... lame....but thats whats happens to me all the time, after one or two weeks i run out form money cuz $100 dlls is not enough for a whole month!! i really want to go shopping... i need a bathing suit asap... is been a long time since i shopped the last time and im in the States!!!!!!!! my life is so damn miserable .. but what is in my mind the most is OKC.. and my parents are just careless that im that excited to go..the simply dont care, and they dont want me to go...im pissed off.. THE DONT CALL ME!! and i need to start begging for the plane ticket!!! i need the computer in mex to be fixed and they can call me thru skype and see e crying. otherwise if i really really REALLY dont see results of my begging i wont talk to them, no mattes if the pc is fixed or no if they call me ill ignore the call, i wont answer or if they call me home ill pick up the phone and hang up...i dont wanna do that but omg i deserve the fuckin damn trip that i have been wanting to go since forever.. i hope la ayoya can help me with the ticket or maybe just convincing my mom =((.. im so sad i feel like crying right now..

and about my dad he barely talks to me, hes never on in messenger when he is we video chat but thats like once a month and sometimes he would call me one weekend to see how i am, but since he knows i want money and i want to go to a trip he wont call me to listen to my crying.. i hate it... i hate the way he is sometimes.. so careless, he lefts on my mom all the package of 2 teenagers..

please god please, please please PLEASE! make my wish come true.. i want to go to oklahoma with jarred and jordan =(((!!!! that's all i want..

and i also want to stop eating... see you guys.. pray for me and my okc trip...