Sometimes i impress myself, by finding out how stalker i am, yes in fact this blog is a product of my stalking, facebook my best tool for my stalker passion, i found this there....
Anyway im on spring break from school.. all this week.. and it has been boring.. kind of relaxing but boring, i havent gone anywhere at ALL, i have stayed home all day all week, that sucks, in the mean time my friends from mexico im sure theyre having a blast in the beach and sun, and me? here i am.. as i was yesterday laying on the couch with my laptop next to me watchin TV and the day before, and the day before, i wish i could have more friends, like in the school and stuff, I'm not as confident as i thought i guess, i wish they could come over to my house pick me up and go with no destination just hanging out like we do it in mex. well they do it here, but since none of the few friend i have, have a car, its almost impossible for me to go out when I'm bored, i want more adventure, more fun..wild!
talking about another stuff i really want to go to Oklahoma=(!! with jarred but omg my mom just made a total big deal out of it I'm sick of it she didnt even call me today, and also my dad, i knew he would say noo... but omg c'mon im sure i will have alot of fun down there if i goo!! im dieing to goo!! that's the why of al my dieting (that now sucks cuz I'm eating like crazy), but was all bcuz of jordan i really like him and omg i really want to be down there gettin drunk with em!!
i hope this weekend i can get an affirmative answer cuz I'm not accepting a no as an answer!!! I'm really willing to go and have sleepovers with jordan and all the gang!! omg i dream about that!!
and i need to be skinny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but omg i just love to eat i would never forgive myself if another guy ditch me again because of my FAT !! eventhought i feel skinnier i still think i need more cuz sometimes i see myself so skinny and some other times i just see my fat ass in the mirror and wanna go out and throw up all i ate during the day, i would never do that cuz im not dumb and know that once you start that there no easy way to get out, but come onnnnnnnnn mannnnn he had been with a lot of hot girls im sure his ex is so damn hot, (of course not with my big bubs) but shes hot! i really hope he likes me when we get to know each other finally after all the flirting, i swear oklahoma is the only thing that right now keeps me awake dreaming i really want to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and have for at least 10 days all the fun i have missed here because of the fu**** mexican stereotype that most of the american ppl has, and is not that im blaming all on that, im sure i could make friend on my own since i dress well and im kind butt omg it is so hard!! and more when i feel like im gonna feel awkward and be ridiculous.
i have a lot of papers that i would like to put in here to keep track of my wonderfull writing, hope i can do it later...
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To keep track of my random useful thoughts that cross my mind. Many of them I've already forgotten due to the fact that i get so distracted by the time passes, but stuff that happens in your life that you cant control but learn to deal with as they come along. but anyways thats it.
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